《我今年,二十七八岁》

深吸一口气。。继续向前走。。
烦恼的时候，不再发牢骚。。
我们静静的地，静静的地看着听着。。

这很现实又很虚伪的世界。。

明明很想哭。。
却还在笑

明明很在乎。。
却装作无所谓

明明很想留下，
却坚定的说要离开。。

明明很痛苦，
却偏偏说自己很幸福。。

明明忘不掉，
却说已经忘了。。

明明放不下，
却说她是她，我是我。。

明明舍不得，
却说我已经受够了。。

明明说的是违心的假话，
却说那是自己的真心话。。

明明眼泪都要溢出眼眶，
却高昂着头。。

明明已经无法挽回，
却依旧执著着。。

明明知道自己很受伤，
却说你不必觉得欠我的。。

明明伪装的好累，
却还得依旧。。

sorry that i loved you~

For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you thing that i was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending your flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take u stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry dosent can turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i held you tight
And I'm So sorry for
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For given you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love for wasting your time
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry dosent can turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i held you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won't make my difference tonight
But I'm hoping I'm Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
yeah
Sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry do can't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
Sorry That I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
sorry dosent can turn back time
im So sorry that i loved you
im Sorry That I hurt you
im So sorry that i loved you
im so Sorry That I hurt you
im So sorry that i loved you

sorry that if i hurted u...

Just to share some thought~

when i think of cell division within living things...i get something...quite similar to how we start to do a things...it start with 1 to 2...2 to 4.....but after some time...100000 to 200000......means the starting is slow and difficult...but it gets easier and easier after move onward~

Tests finally come to the end...for this instant only...

Finally it gone...but another it...and a lots of another it...will follow on to come...
I can feel tiredness of my body this few month...both physically and mentally is totally strained...
I can finally get my stress released and use this free time i get to recover my energy meter...
The result aren't good...
But teacher say it had improved...
But I can see teacher are trying to boast our confident...
Being a form 6 student in a school with previous amazing result of top five in Sabah...
No one of us feel funny about it...
Having a burden of this amazing result...i almost cant breath...
I'm hoping everyday everything could be change...
But what i get is...disappointing...

陈奕迅：全世界失眠

想起我不完美，
你会不会逃离我生命的范围。
想着你的滋味，
我会不会把这个枕头变得甜美。
想起白天的约会，
忘了晚上的咖啡。
只怕感情如潮水，
远离我梦中的堡垒。

一个人失眠，全世界失眠。
无辜的街灯，守候明天。
幸福的失眠，
只是因为害怕闭上眼，
如何想你想到六点？
如何爱你爱到终点？

想起我的时候，
你会不会好像我一样不能睡。
想像你的暧昧，
我会不会数不到绵羊一双一对。
想起白天的约会，
忘了晚上的咖啡。
只怕感情如潮水，
远离我梦中的堡垒。

一个人失眠，全世界失眠。
无辜的街灯，守候明天。
幸福的失眠，
只是因为害怕闭上眼，
如何想你想到六点？
一个人失眠，全世界失眠。
幸福的失眠，
只是因为害怕闭上眼，
如何想你想到六点？
如何爱你爱到终点？
如何爱你爱到终点？


听这首歌，觉得很感触~

Craig David - Unbelievable Album: The Story Goes

Always said
I would know where to find love
Always thought
I' d be ready and strong enough
But sometimes
I just felt I could give up
But you came
And you changed my whole world now
I' m somewhere
I' ve never been before
Now I see
What love means
It' s so unbelievable
And I don' t wanna let it go
It' s something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you' ve been
Forever a part of me
And it' s so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I' d be
In my heart in my head
It' s so clear now
Hold my hand
You' ve got nothing to fear now
I was lost
And you rescued me somehow
I' m alive
I' m in love you complete me
And I' ve never been here before
Now I see
What love means
It' s so unbelievable
And I don' t wanna let it go
It' s something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you' ve been
Forever a part of me
And it' s so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I' d be
When I think of what I have
And this chance I nearly lost
I can' t help but breakdown
And cry
Oh yeah
Break down and cry
Oh, oh yeah
It' s so unbelievable
And I don' t wanna let it go
It' s something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you' ve been
Forever a part of me
And it' s so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I' d be
Now I see
What love means

理智总是在和勇气争执。

有人说思维是抓不到摸不到的东西， 需要用心深入感觉才能看清真相~
虽说如此，有些人连自己的情绪。。思虑。。想法。。甚至感情也无法摸清，更别说别人的~

~想法太乱，幻觉太多~
~疑虑很大 直到说不清楚~
~心算太慢 但仍然算错~
~找对人 偏错过~

这是在一首歌里的~
细心想想，里面给了我不少的启发~
或许我真的是想太多了~
搞得自己情绪也很乱~
常常举棋不定~
不知是不是人长大了，就要被越来越多的东西捆绑着~
对一些事情。。理智总是在和勇气争执。。

某些事，自己很不明白~
但却不知道是自己不明白还是自己不太想去明白~
被困扰的自己觉得好想透一透气~
罢了。。 不想再想了，活好现在就好了~
We do all our part of job...and left the remaining part to the god...
Tired...