Tests finally come to the end...for this instant only...

Finally it gone...but another it...and a lots of another it...will follow on to come...
I can feel tiredness of my body this few month...both physically and mentally is totally strained...
I can finally get my stress released and use this free time i get to recover my energy meter...
The result aren't good...
But teacher say it had improved...
But I can see teacher are trying to boast our confident...
Being a form 6 student in a school with previous amazing result of top five in Sabah...
No one of us feel funny about it...
Having a burden of this amazing result...i almost cant breath...
I'm hoping everyday everything could be change...
But what i get is...disappointing...

陈奕迅：全世界失眠

想起我不完美，
你会不会逃离我生命的范围。
想着你的滋味，
我会不会把这个枕头变得甜美。
想起白天的约会，
忘了晚上的咖啡。
只怕感情如潮水，
远离我梦中的堡垒。

一个人失眠，全世界失眠。
无辜的街灯，守候明天。
幸福的失眠，
只是因为害怕闭上眼，
如何想你想到六点？
如何爱你爱到终点？

想起我的时候，
你会不会好像我一样不能睡。
想像你的暧昧，
我会不会数不到绵羊一双一对。
想起白天的约会，
忘了晚上的咖啡。
只怕感情如潮水，
远离我梦中的堡垒。

一个人失眠，全世界失眠。
无辜的街灯，守候明天。
幸福的失眠，
只是因为害怕闭上眼，
如何想你想到六点？
一个人失眠，全世界失眠。
幸福的失眠，
只是因为害怕闭上眼，
如何想你想到六点？
如何爱你爱到终点？
如何爱你爱到终点？


听这首歌，觉得很感触~

Craig David - Unbelievable Album: The Story Goes

Always said
I would know where to find love
Always thought
I' d be ready and strong enough
But sometimes
I just felt I could give up
But you came
And you changed my whole world now
I' m somewhere
I' ve never been before
Now I see
What love means
It' s so unbelievable
And I don' t wanna let it go
It' s something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you' ve been
Forever a part of me
And it' s so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I' d be
In my heart in my head
It' s so clear now
Hold my hand
You' ve got nothing to fear now
I was lost
And you rescued me somehow
I' m alive
I' m in love you complete me
And I' ve never been here before
Now I see
What love means
It' s so unbelievable
And I don' t wanna let it go
It' s something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you' ve been
Forever a part of me
And it' s so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I' d be
When I think of what I have
And this chance I nearly lost
I can' t help but breakdown
And cry
Oh yeah
Break down and cry
Oh, oh yeah
It' s so unbelievable
And I don' t wanna let it go
It' s something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you' ve been
Forever a part of me
And it' s so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I' d be
Now I see
What love means

理智总是在和勇气争执。

有人说思维是抓不到摸不到的东西， 需要用心深入感觉才能看清真相~
虽说如此，有些人连自己的情绪。。思虑。。想法。。甚至感情也无法摸清，更别说别人的~

~想法太乱，幻觉太多~
~疑虑很大 直到说不清楚~
~心算太慢 但仍然算错~
~找对人 偏错过~

这是在一首歌里的~
细心想想，里面给了我不少的启发~
或许我真的是想太多了~
搞得自己情绪也很乱~
常常举棋不定~
不知是不是人长大了，就要被越来越多的东西捆绑着~
对一些事情。。理智总是在和勇气争执。。

某些事，自己很不明白~
但却不知道是自己不明白还是自己不太想去明白~
被困扰的自己觉得好想透一透气~
罢了。。 不想再想了，活好现在就好了~
We do all our part of job...and left the remaining part to the god...
Tired...

Recently what about me...

When heard a song that fit your feelings and emotions, it really get u very touched...
Touch not because that the song is really that nice, but you feel like somebody is understand you...

Recently i'm getting emotional, and hard to get myself concentrate on my study...
I understand what should and shouldn't i do now but i just can't control myself...
Somebody tell me that it is mood swing, and tell me how to handle it...
I'm trying to cope it but it seem to be getting worst...
I feel like i can't handle it anymore, i feel like if i could just leave all the things down and walk away...
I know i can't do that, because i know that our life is not just ourselve alone...
What you choose to do, affect the most the one most near to you...

Come to today, i suddenly feel like get lost...
I'm not that confident anymore...
Think more complicated...
Getting myself trapped in those "should and shouldn't do"...
Getting unhappy...
Getting good in act out a fake emotion of myself...
Feel like that isn't the real me...
Feel like Intellect are fighting inside with my Brave...

But the things that i should appreciate is a group of best friend...
And someone...thanks for your support...
After i write out all of this...
I hope i can really get myself released...
I shouldn't be like this anymore...
Be cheerful...to all of you include myself...