sorry that i loved you~

For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you thing that i was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending your flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take u stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry dosent can turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i held you tight
And I'm So sorry for
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For given you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love for wasting your time
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry dosent can turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i held you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won't make my difference tonight
But I'm hoping I'm Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
yeah
Sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry do can't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
Sorry That I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
sorry dosent can turn back time
im So sorry that i loved you
im Sorry That I hurt you
im So sorry that i loved you
im so Sorry That I hurt you
im So sorry that i loved you

sorry that if i hurted u...

Just to share some thought~

when i think of cell division within living things...i get something...quite similar to how we start to do a things...it start with 1 to 2...2 to 4.....but after some time...100000 to 200000......means the starting is slow and difficult...but it gets easier and easier after move onward~

Tests finally come to the end...for this instant only...

Finally it gone...but another it...and a lots of another it...will follow on to come...
I can feel tiredness of my body this few month...both physically and mentally is totally strained...
I can finally get my stress released and use this free time i get to recover my energy meter...
The result aren't good...
But teacher say it had improved...
But I can see teacher are trying to boast our confident...
Being a form 6 student in a school with previous amazing result of top five in Sabah...
No one of us feel funny about it...
Having a burden of this amazing result...i almost cant breath...
I'm hoping everyday everything could be change...
But what i get is...disappointing...

陈奕迅：全世界失眠

想起我不完美，
你会不会逃离我生命的范围。
想着你的滋味，
我会不会把这个枕头变得甜美。
想起白天的约会，
忘了晚上的咖啡。
只怕感情如潮水，
远离我梦中的堡垒。

一个人失眠，全世界失眠。
无辜的街灯，守候明天。
幸福的失眠，
只是因为害怕闭上眼，
如何想你想到六点？
如何爱你爱到终点？

想起我的时候，
你会不会好像我一样不能睡。
想像你的暧昧，
我会不会数不到绵羊一双一对。
想起白天的约会，
忘了晚上的咖啡。
只怕感情如潮水，
远离我梦中的堡垒。

一个人失眠，全世界失眠。
无辜的街灯，守候明天。
幸福的失眠，
只是因为害怕闭上眼，
如何想你想到六点？
一个人失眠，全世界失眠。
幸福的失眠，
只是因为害怕闭上眼，
如何想你想到六点？
如何爱你爱到终点？
如何爱你爱到终点？


听这首歌，觉得很感触~

Craig David - Unbelievable Album: The Story Goes

Always said
I would know where to find love
Always thought
I' d be ready and strong enough
But sometimes
I just felt I could give up
But you came
And you changed my whole world now
I' m somewhere
I' ve never been before
Now I see
What love means
It' s so unbelievable
And I don' t wanna let it go
It' s something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you' ve been
Forever a part of me
And it' s so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I' d be
In my heart in my head
It' s so clear now
Hold my hand
You' ve got nothing to fear now
I was lost
And you rescued me somehow
I' m alive
I' m in love you complete me
And I' ve never been here before
Now I see
What love means
It' s so unbelievable
And I don' t wanna let it go
It' s something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you' ve been
Forever a part of me
And it' s so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I' d be
When I think of what I have
And this chance I nearly lost
I can' t help but breakdown
And cry
Oh yeah
Break down and cry
Oh, oh yeah
It' s so unbelievable
And I don' t wanna let it go
It' s something so beautiful
Flowing down like a waterfall
I feel like you' ve been
Forever a part of me
And it' s so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I' d be
Now I see
What love means

理智总是在和勇气争执。

有人说思维是抓不到摸不到的东西， 需要用心深入感觉才能看清真相~
虽说如此，有些人连自己的情绪。。思虑。。想法。。甚至感情也无法摸清，更别说别人的~

~想法太乱，幻觉太多~
~疑虑很大 直到说不清楚~
~心算太慢 但仍然算错~
~找对人 偏错过~

这是在一首歌里的~
细心想想，里面给了我不少的启发~
或许我真的是想太多了~
搞得自己情绪也很乱~
常常举棋不定~
不知是不是人长大了，就要被越来越多的东西捆绑着~
对一些事情。。理智总是在和勇气争执。。

某些事，自己很不明白~
但却不知道是自己不明白还是自己不太想去明白~
被困扰的自己觉得好想透一透气~
罢了。。 不想再想了，活好现在就好了~
We do all our part of job...and left the remaining part to the god...
Tired...

Recently what about me...

When heard a song that fit your feelings and emotions, it really get u very touched...
Touch not because that the song is really that nice, but you feel like somebody is understand you...

Recently i'm getting emotional, and hard to get myself concentrate on my study...
I understand what should and shouldn't i do now but i just can't control myself...
Somebody tell me that it is mood swing, and tell me how to handle it...
I'm trying to cope it but it seem to be getting worst...
I feel like i can't handle it anymore, i feel like if i could just leave all the things down and walk away...
I know i can't do that, because i know that our life is not just ourselve alone...
What you choose to do, affect the most the one most near to you...

Come to today, i suddenly feel like get lost...
I'm not that confident anymore...
Think more complicated...
Getting myself trapped in those "should and shouldn't do"...
Getting unhappy...
Getting good in act out a fake emotion of myself...
Feel like that isn't the real me...
Feel like Intellect are fighting inside with my Brave...

But the things that i should appreciate is a group of best friend...
And someone...thanks for your support...
After i write out all of this...
I hope i can really get myself released...
I shouldn't be like this anymore...
Be cheerful...to all of you include myself...

Nothing can stop you from chasing your dream~

When we want to further going for certain things that we hope to achieve...
It seem to be a lot of difficulty can appear...

But as i can say is...
There are nothing harder than you yourself to get control of your heart...

Get control of your heart not as easy as control your computer within a single click...
But u need to against everything that is so attractive in this colorful world...

Myself was trying hard to practice this stuff...
But this is not easy as i have said...

So i should start this by achieve some easier goal...
To build up my stamina and confidence...

Recently i have started to work out about 1 hour and revise my thick and dusty books for about 2 hours everyday...
I will keep this on...and even add some new goal as i success this...

GET CONTROL YOUR HEART...NOTHING CANT STOP YOU FROM CHASING YOUR DREAM~

Life such a glowing circle....

Imagine that your life are one circle...
Your circle is glowing larger and larger as time passed~

As your circle become large, you will intersect with many others circles that pass by your circle...
Some are simply touch your circle...while some are really strongly attached to your circle...
Who are some strangers...some classmate...
some friends...some truth friends...that u might meet...
When you intersect with each other...love and caring is shared...

And sure there will be some circle that might go into your circle...
You will surrounded it will your whole circle...
Keep he/she in your protection...and you are willing to do every thing for him/her...

While the circle inside you, he/she give his/her life to you...
He/she put all his/her belief on you...
Where her/his life become apart of yours...while your life are also apart of her/his life
When you are together...love and caring is shared to each other...
One of you become supportive of each other...
Therefore life become happier...easier...lovelier...

If one day...
Two of you wont be together anymore...
Each of the circle will leaving from each other...

Therefore a hole will leave inside each other circle...
The hole will either small or big depends on the time you two living together...
And it will become a black spot that never get rid of your life...

Life is simply sharing and caring with each other...
Appreciate who beside you...



Sorry for any grammar mistake...thanks for reading...hope you can understand what i'm saying...

Pre-U Life...

Time for this post is stolen from my revision time, i really run out of mood to study.
Time past by so fast, here come to my second semester already...

In my opinion that, pre-u not only studying knowledge, but it train us to open our mind.
Change the way how we thinking, acting and making decision...
Its just my own opinion...

Pre-u life come with alot of hardship...but i din feel hard under accompany of my best friend...
we sharing nonsense joke together.... laugh together.... carry out school project together...
life so complicated but we make it simple...

arh...so long i had used on this post...
I will try to stealing time for new post again.